Same As A Wildcat

Well, I'm comfortable in the body I was issued, for the most part. But I do not have a very strong felt sense of being "a woman" per se; I know I'm a woman because that's what people call me. But other than the process of being pregnant, which was very intense, I don't really *think of myself* in those terms. I am also not comfortable with the constraints and expectations that other people try to place on me, based on the conclusions they draw from looking at me; further, I have gender whims, in that some days I'm girly and some days I'm kind of butch. There's some kind of rhythm to it but I've never bothered to track it. That and my aggressiveness unnerve the shit out of people, apparently. I see this as their problem, but if all those things connected in my head more strongly I could see how it might make me more deeply uncomfortable.